Category: Writing

Open Road with Clouds

My writing buddy, Sylvia Gravrock, author of Alive in the Storm, has roped me into a “blog hop.” Bunny hop, sock hop and I suppose premium brew hops. But blog hop? I agreed because I like her and wanted to help. So thank you Sylvia. Although I am rather resistant, I am willing to hop a bit. I’m supposed to answer ten questions about my novel, Turtle Season, which I will do unless I go in a different direction. I do want to talk about Turtle Season.

I’ve been writing for many years, always with a gorilla-sized inner critic cluttering my brain. I’ve had moments of freedom, but mostly I tangled with that gorilla over every word I wrote. Somehow NaNoWriMo, (National Novel Writing Month) drugged the ape into submission. My goal for thirty days was to write 1667 words daily, any words. Word count was primary, not the quality of the writing.

I started with a few pages about a depressed, menopausal woman at her kitchen table and gradually I discovered she was a widow, mother of twins and a lecturer on hospice issues. As the story grew, Anna, the protagonist, discovers her husband’s shocking betrayal and also finds herself attracted to a woman. Who knew? At the end of NaNoWriMo, November 2010, I had the core of what has become Turtle Season.

I loved waking up every morning for many months and hanging out with Anna and the people who came to populate her life. I loved meeting them daily and discovering their stories. Turtle Season has been available now for a couple of months as an ebook and paperback. Visit my website, http://www.miriamruthblack.com to read the first chapter.

And now I am lonely and bereft. Many readers have asked for a sequel. “What happens to Anna? I miss her,” they say. Well I do too! And mostly I miss the daily adventure of creating a story, refining it, giving life.

I had the opportunity of publishing with a lesbian feminist small press, but I hated the idea of losing control of my novel and I also didn’t want to lock myself into a niche market. Although there is definitely a lesbian aspect to Turtle Season, I believe Anna’s story could be any woman’s story. So far, most readers agree.

So I decided to self-publish and chose to work with Beaver’s Pond Press in Edina, MN. Established over twenty years ago, Beaver’s Pond Press was assisting authors way before self-publishing became a trend.

I took the photo attached to this post on a road trip somewhere – I think New Mexico or Arizona. “Open Road with Clouds.” I feel a bit like that now as I stumble around trying to find my way back into a story.

I think of a wonderful poem by James Wright, The Branch Will Not Break, in a poetry collection of the same name, recently republished. I don’t have the exact words with me now but I see Jim Wright, who was my professor, awakening with a massive hangover one morning, looking out the window, and seeing a bird joyously hopping on a tree branch, knowing it would not break. The clouds will disappear and a new character will turn up to keep me company. Another kind of hop.

You too can hop….. Visit Dara Beevas, author of the Indie Author Revolution, Insider’s Guide to Self-Publishing and Amy Quale, Managing Editor of Beaver’s Pond Press at their engaging and useful site wiseinkblog.com. They’ll be showcasing a new post on Wednesday, December 12th about self publishing.

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Dead Hydrangea

When the sun hit this bush last month it sparkled purple and today, after a freeze, it reminds me of a renaissance painting, sensual and rich.  Ironic since it’s actually quite dead.

Looking at the picture I have the urge to reach in and run my fingers over the flowers imagining they would be soft and tender rather than what they are in reality – brittle and crisp.

There’s a meaning lurking within this photo that remains hidden for me.  I stare and stare on and off through the afternoon.  What is the secret buried behind the petals?

No response.  How silly to expect a photo to speak.  And if it spoke, what might it say?

Maybe it would tell me to look for the beauty all around me.  Often in unexpected places.  But always to be cherished.  If it spoke to you, what would it say?

Go figure

I’ve hated turtles most of my life – no one was more surprised than I to find them emerge as a presence in my first novel.

When I was five, my father and I fished off a dock on Lake Minnetonka in Minnesota. I had just caught a sunfish and strung it on the line of other fish we’d caught that day. I noticed they all looked dry and no longer flashy and lovely, so I dipped them in water to restore their shimmer. Through the murky water I saw a sudden movement. Assuming the fish might still be alive and trying to escape, I pulled up the line and heard a chilling sharp snap. The line got feather light – rather tiny bone light – that’s all that was left after a snapping turtle sucked all our fish down in one gulp leaving only a line of skeletons.  (Click on snapping turtles if you want to see a very creepy snapping turtle video)

The next thing I remember is screaming when my parents tried to put me to bed that night. I refused to put my body under the blankets until they were able to prove no turtles lurked in my bed. Once under the covers, I couldn’t close my eyes afraid the turtles were swimming around me. I must have fallen asleep because I woke screaming even louder than before. My father moved to comfort me and I begged him not to walk toward me because the turtles were everywhere and would swallow him whole.

As I grew, I came to understand that turtles probably didn’t live under my blanket or swim around in the air around my bed. But I never warmed to reptiles in general – particularly turtles!

One year into writing Anna’s story I found myself stuck. I sat for hours at my laptop unable to find the thread of the novel. Late one Saturday night I remembered an exercise I’d done in a class taught by Mary Carroll Moore – she used collages to help us sneak into our hidden selves. I found myself at Half Priced Books gathering old magazines including a stack of National Geographics.

The first picture that caught my eye was of a massive Galapagos Island Tortoise – which I dismissed immediately. I sat on the floor surrounded by magazines consciously avoiding that picture. I studied Architectural Digest for inspiration and Sunset Magazine for a spark and my eyes drifted back to the picture of the tortoise. So I cut him out and placed him on the corner of the poster board, then lifted him and smeared his back with glue stick and attempted to place him back in the corner, but he pushed my hand until he hovered over the middle of the empty sheet and demanded to be placed there. So I did. Quickly other images jumped out at me and began to fill in the blank poster board.

No matter what images I placed on the collage, my eye locked on the big old turtle. And so I began to write about that turtle – the story I wrote that evening evolved into a dream sequence in chapter thirty-one of Turtle Season and opened the door to parts of Anna’s story that had been previously invisible to me.

 

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